on one hand this semester can’t end soon enough..cannot wait for a stress free summer. but on the other hand, i’m genuinely sad that this semester is coming to a close. i had a lot of hard classes and squashed time schedules but despite that i really enjoy it? i’ve realized i find a lot of comfort in structure, and i’m relieved in some way that i don’t have to be completely on my own yet—I have two more years of knowing for sure what I’m doing, two more years of the assurance that i will be waking up and going to class and learning things I’m interested in/preparing for a career. it’s the two more years of definite direction.
things i will miss most about this semester:
- really sad about my dance class ending. it’s just a class, but i LOVED it. it was 4 stress free hours a week. I just got to laugh at myself and learn. and we all got really comfy with each other (i met some of the SWEETEST people there) so it’s kinda sad that is ending but!! we will see each other around campus still.
- seeing much of the same people in my classes! this is something that’s totally new to me as someone who was homeschooled growing up. it is weird to see friends on a weekday. and the fact that those people LIKE me?? whattt??? me? kelly? you want to be MY friend? silly but that’s still such a surprise to me.
- off of that, the close friends that i may only get to see on a once/twice/never weekly basis but still get to talk to are the most wonderful. also makes this nerd super happy
- machine shop. I like working with the machines and making clean cuts and milling with neat little curlycues of aluminum chips piling up. been a cool hands on learning experience
- my TAs. i have gushed more than once and several times too many. there have been WAY too many nice TAs with fantastic smiles this semester. genuinely surprised and taken aback by some of their niceness. I feel like I’ve used up my allotment of nice people already. maybe the next two years hold zero nice TAs for me.
i wasn’t that psyched about it two years ago (i was like, it’s school) but i’ve come to really like this university and i’m really grateful for it. for the open professors(who don’t mind a random girl approaching them and saying, “hey, what you do is exactly down the alley of what i want to do, can i ask you some questions about that?”), the school spirit haha, the gigantic campus with tons of opportunities. it’s pretty in a bold, wholesome, comfortable way. not so much gorgeous, just a nice campus. and, I love gorgeous campuses, but I also I like this. I like that it’s not intimidating, not too up in your face.
part of me loves this university and part of me is sad at how fast time is going. a line from ordinary by tim be told always sticks out to me—“Why am i such in a rush to be somebody / leaving behind all the things i’d rather be?” .. time flies, and i don’t want to waste the “now” by thinking always of the future. being working age is not gonna be all that it’s cracked up to be so i def want to appreciate this age & stage.